Saturday, 16 June 2012
|well hello again everyone. it has been a while but things have been rather chaotic. I am in the midst of being transferred from Incapacity benefit to ESA, I have had my cluster headaches turn from episodic to chronic and am being hit 8-9 times a day, my ME has gone wild and currently have tonsillitis and oral thrush due to taking steroids for the cluster headaches with a throat infection so the thrush decided it would join the party.
Sound like I am having a crappy time? well yes and no, I had a blood test yesterday to see if I am pregnant as I have had all the signs and symptoms that I have a little one on the way, we have been trying since august with no joy, The feelings of being preggers are subsiding though so if ear it is a false alarm but my body is at leas trying to do something which I am grateful for any sign that my body is trying to work is good enough for me.
FOrum publishing is going from strength to strength we have offered many of the books as free downloads and shot up the download charts on Amazon like a rocket, I am so proud of Roger and Angeleyes40 for all their hard work and dedication to try and ensure our members have a forum to come to now and in the future, the books are amazing we just want more people to leave reviews so that people can see how great the books are, there were over 2000 downloads on cupboard under the stairs in about 2 days, I just want to thank all those supporting us and encourage you to put your hand in your pocket for the small amount the other books cost as I can almost guarantee you wont be disappointed
Each book is very different to the next with humour, horror, drama and intrigue in them, I cant even say I have a favourite as they are all so different, we have the naked emperor and its prequel, the day of reckoning that you cannot read in public for fear of being locked away for laughing hysterically, we have the cupboard under the stairs which is dark and for adults only, a tale of horror and suspense, we have Broken cats and cowboy hats, which is the first in the series of book Mr Knowles wrote which is a great crime novel that gets you into the mind of the criminal and you cant help but feel sorry for the way society has shaped him and then you wonder how you an empathise with such an awful man, we have to be a man which is our love story with a difference, the tale of a mothers love for her son it is a brilliant novel sure to keep you hooked with a tear to the eye at some points.
I have been to a specialist hospital in Liverpool for the cluster headaches and have just finished a very high dose of steroids but sadly today the beast is back and I am left despairing as we are trying for a baby I cannot have other medication until we know I am not pregnant and we cannot try whilst I trial the medication but knowing there is something o try when I have had a baby is a help at least I feel there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I can also maybe have something called the greater occipital nerve block if I get hit baad during trying for a baby or pregnant which is injections into the nerves in my neck which will block the cluster headaches but these are not given lightly so if I find I am preggers I will have to do my damnedest to cope before they give them.
Everyone on the forum is helping each other, it is such a wonderful place to be, It never fails to amaze me the strength of the people on there, they are suffering every single day quite tragically, yet they are always there with a smile and a word of support for someone else having an equally bad day. We have a new mod, Emettman also known as Chris who is doing us proud ensuring the smooth running of the site, to be fair though the members pretty much look after themselves and we have to have minimal intervention, I feel it an honour to be part of the mod team helping those who help me.