This post was inspired by a question on the forum. When I first read it I immediately dismissed the notion that there could be something good about this illness, but on reflection, every cloud has a silver lining, here's the one that means the most to me...
I have more time than most people because I live my life in a slower and more considered fashion. I don't rush, because I can't. It's remarkably liberating to have stepped off the hamster wheel and actually notice details of the world around me.
From the swallows chasing insects, the seagulls celebrating the first flight of their young, to the kestrel on her favourite lamppost and the ants sneaking breadcrumbs back to their nests, I see so much more because I have time to look.
I stay home with my small children because I am not able to hold down a job. I see the triumphs and tragedies of their days, I watch them learn, play and grow in minute detail. I am amazed daily at how quickly they develop, how one day they can be so different to the next. Time gives me that luxury.
My stress levels are low. I don't worry because it has a negative effect on my health. If I can see an issue that I think could cause me a problem, then I examine it and plan my responses to the possible outcomes. I can do this, because CFS gives me time.
And to finish, a quote from M. Scott Peck on Time...
Until you value yourself, you won't value your time. Until you value your time, you will not do anything with it.